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Thursday~ June 14th First Delay of This Journey June 14, 2012

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I always try to listen to my ititution and act on it. I had called the Dr. the first part of the weekend to make sure I didn’t miss understand all the info she had given me and to make sure I hadn’t missed any instructions or medication changes. No keep everything the same. I felt better afterwords.

a dear friend sent an email to me yesterday but I didn’t have a chance to read it until today… he had resent an email that he had sent back in 2009 titled “shrimp”… was a wonderful email of encouragement when I was recovering from my wreck back then. The title referred to a conversation earlier about getting fresh shrimp.

The two above events seem totally unrelated to  each other,right? WRONG… about 4:00 this afternoon one of the technicians called from the radiology place to review for the up-scan on Monday. One question was  are you taking any thyroid medications.. When I said yes, I was informed that now I have to wait another 6 weeks  from today to have the test. Needless to say this did not go over well with me…. At that moment I lost my composure. I hadn’t up to this point and I was proud that I hadn’t lost it up till then. I choked up and then was a bit pissed. I called the dr’s office and let them know what I had been told and they said they would call me back… apparently this information was correct…. and so I will have to wait.  I am seeing quickly that this whole process of testing is going to take a lot longer than I had anticipated.. darn it.

June 12th ~ Tuesday June 12, 2012

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Image  As I was headed to work this morning this sunrise greeted me today. Of course the camera doesn’t capture all the purty colors that were visible.  Back tracking just a little, After the long weekend and trying to get a handle on all of this, My Monday was full of wonderful affirmations for me. My co-work over the years has shared a story about a woman whom she admires and I have come to admire her resilience and deep faith. I had the opportunity to talk to her Monday morning and what a wonderful rush of peace washed over me. Later I made a call to my Doctor last night just before 6 p.m.

I wanted to reconfirm some of the terms and descriptions that she had used… she was so understanding and the encouraging that it was in fact a lot to digest and I retained what she said well. One of the problems that I have commented on was that there were days where my thought process would get all garbled up and concentration was zilch. So as I reflect back I can see that my thyroid was misbehaving even though the tests hadn’t picked up on it… it was all indicating “menopause” related… Yephee.

So this morning I called and spoke with my daughter and let her know what was up and the testing I would be having done next week. I have to focus on one task at a time… but not her, she is holding a conversation and reading on line and giving me encouragement all at the same time… She is so incredibly awsome. Parents never want to bother their children, even grown up children with matters like this… We want to always be strong in their eyes. The conversation was easier than I had thought… Another bullet dodged. I had no more hung up the phone when another dear friend had called… not knowing anything was calling to check on me because I had been on her mind a lot… This is one of life’s wonderful Joys… Friends and meaningful relationships that you know a higher universal power is at work. I am learning quickly that when we turn matters like this over to our higher power, an unresounding peace stays with you through the day.

June 8,9 & 10th~ The TGIF & Weekend June 10, 2012

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I went to work and  sent my boss a detailed scheduled of what what be done on the 18th & 19th and what times the office would be non attended… Increadibly supportive in his reply back to me. From the 1st interview  almost 4 years ago… I prayed I would be blessed with this job… to work with good people and be in a family like atmoshere… knowing it would be the best Job I had ever had immediately.

Co -worker comes in and we visit and discuss how her husband is handleing his news as well.  We discussed a game plan for having everything.

About 12:45 am we get a call from hubbys sister that they have taken his mom to the hospitial. That her defibulater was shocking her because of severe dehydration.. I was prepared to go and pull the night shift..but it was covered.

Mike went into work and I slept in till 8:00 and I enjoyed that. Got up and made the browinies and cookies for our troop family that was coming in on Sunday.

There was suppose to be a big family reunion on the ranch Saterday evening. So there was alot of family in town to keep up with. I was elected to pull the night shift since it was my mother in law. This would allow for the rest of the family  members to get together and have a  subdude grilled dinner.

My mother n law and I get along good, so we made the best of it even after they gave her the lasix… we did the pee pee dance for a couple of hours and laughed though that as well…. the rest of the nigh consisted of cat naps and monitoring, blood work, x-rays etc… will be glad to get home this afternoon and take a nap.

June 7th ~ Thursday The 2:45 appointment June 10, 2012

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I didn’t sleep worth a flip all night so I am really tired and a non- stop yawn most of the day. I didn’t think 2:20 would ever get here, so that I could head to the appoint ment. I arrive on time and sit till it is my turn to go in… and we do the blood pressure, sugar count, tempature then off to Room # 3 again.  The Dr. was busy following up on a conference call so the nurse came in and said she had instructions to schedule another test for me. I thinking well good that one didn’t show anything and she just wants to make sure she didn’t miss anything. WRONG!!!! thinking on my part for the next 10 minutes. Dr. Margaret comes in and does the are you ok look? I said yes. She rolls up her chair close by me, and said it is what we thought Hashimoto’s thyroiditis. Damn there’s thpse words again. She explains that there are two nodules on the right side and inhonogeneity on the left side. What? What does that mean? That there are some irregularities on the left side? ok what does that mean? More tests basically. To determine what are the abnormalities and to rule out that it is not caused from there being something somewhere else in the body or has metastatized.

At this point I am listening but I am on information overload with the other techincal words being used, however I did hear was WE will get you through this. Music to my ears.

We discuss what other tests will be run to cover the basis… besides the Thyroid upscan test(a two day test where I get a cocktail of probably less than yummy stuff, go back at 4 to be scanned, then next day go back and be rescanned at 11 & 4 again…and in between there we will have a mamagram as well and have the lymth nodes looked at too, if possible.  If  time allows a needle asperation will be done also.

Then a possible PET scan and ct scan of the brain.  This will all take time to schedule and do and of course have to wait for the results which will be a week or more for results.

So the waiting through all of these results will be a test in it’s self for me to patient while being the patient. I will use each one of these waits to allow peace, grace and gratidude to work within me.  Allowing me to absorb the information in such a way that good decisions can be made and made not out of fear or from a lack of faith.

As I drove home I tried to replay the whole conversation in my mind trying to remember all the key words and discriptions.  I expected to cry or say “why me” but those events didn’t happen. I was calm inside, I sure was delighted that I have come this far on my spiritual Journey and having that inter peace of knowing all will work out. I shifted my focus on how to minimize this inconfienience for all of us.  I am confident that much will be learned from this portion of my path. Learning is always a good thing.

While I was waiting for hubby to come and share this with him I laid down and started some white light meditation focusing on my throat area.  Hubby and I went to go fill up our water bottles and I shared with him what she shared with me.

I actually slept better tonight than the night before… Thank you Universe for sending the sandman my way.

June 6 ~ Wednesday ~The Call June 8, 2012

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My Wednesday is going along pretty good and counting down to 5 so that we can scoot on home. I have about a 45 min Drive one way from Rockport to Corpus, so I am always thrilled to head home to my honey. Well about 4:45 My co-workers husband calls and tells his wife his wife his test came back positive. We both were in shock and those were the longest 15 minutes of the day. As I am driving home I am saying my prayers for them and watching out for traffic. I normally don’t answer my phone when I am driving  unless I am out past Portland, but I saw that it was the Dr.s office, so I picked up. The receptionist said that the Dr. would like me to come in the following morning, I explained that I couldn’t because my co-worker would be at an appointment with her husband. She asked again what time can you come in tomorrow morning?.. when it was all said and done.. I had a 2:45 appointment for Thursday.  At this point wasn’t too sure what I was feeling…. maybe it was a good thing and she didn’t want me to worry needlessly, yep that was it and dismissed it.  When i shared that with a friend on the phone… immediate response was that doesn’t sound good… so we did the maybe it was a good thing or not, we were trying to reassure me it was a good thing. I get home waiting patiently for hubby to come home… asked me how my day was and share what the afternoon had brought. He said ” that doesn’t sound good”.  Ok by now I am getting a real sense that it probably going to be the best of news.

June 5 ~ Tuesday The Ultra Sound June 8, 2012

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Thinking to myself this will be a breeze… no real concern at this point. Got right in  as she is asking the standard questions. When was the last time you had one? answered “this is the first”  to that she replied “oh really?”.  I lay down with Shoulders on the pillow so that my neck is a little distended for her to do the test….just enough so that I am looking a the monitor upside down and not where my glasses can help me observe all the grey lines… She puts the gel on my neck and moves it around and  Snaps pictures and repeats this several times. Then I notice she is taking measurements and snapping pictures… then there are pictures that have some color on it… hmmm… wonder what that is all about. As we finished up, I teased her and said I know Dr. Margaret is expecting to find a nodule… but how one could find anything in the grey matter was a huge mystery to me… Then I asked about how many days I should wait to hear from the Dr… she said probably Friday or Monday… okie Dokie… Making a mental note that I will follow-up with Doctor on Friday just in case the report is there and I won’t have be concerned over the weekend waiting and wondering.

MAY 31 ~ The Beginning of the Thyroid Journey June 8, 2012

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Like any other Follow-up visit I get the normal, blood pressure, temp and that dreaded weight taken… wait for the Nurse practitioner to come in… She has an unusual last name so we all affectiontly call her Dr. Margret. So we review the lab tests. She shares with me that it looks like  my antibodies are attacking my thyroid. Hum, antibodies, Thyroid… doesn’t sound too cool to me. She goes on to explain that she wants a test run to confirm if it is Hashimoto’s thyroiditis. She explains that nodeuals can form of the thyroid and they can be either begin or cancerious… Great I am thinking to myself. As we finish up the visit an appointment is made for an ultrasound to be done on my Thyroid  on Tuesday @ 4:00 P.M and we will go from there.